Why is it that accusatory thoughts repeatedly float through my mind?
Laying in bed in the early morning, just waking up, the room gradually growing light. The thoughts begin their work.
Remember when the kids were small, how you over punished them that one day? That was terrible. You were a terrible mother.
Remember when you were in college, there was that one study group with that girl you didn’t like? You sure told her off, that was so unchristian like. She will always remember you as the mean one.
Remember how you were so demanding of your ex-husband? No wonder he couldn’t put up with you. You ruined that marriage.
If I let myself begin my day after this barrage, I find that I take out my hurt feelings on my family and friends. Yes, I have made mistakes in my life, I do have regrets. But no, I was not a terrible mother, I did not ruin my marriage. Those are lies that Satan builds out of our humanness. Those bullets of Satan change me into a demanding and unforgiving person.
When I refuse to accept those lies, turn to Scripture and ask for God’s help—everything changes. Christ fills me with a love for others, and myself. I turn my thoughts to the new creation that God has made in me.
Remember last week when you gave groceries to that single mother and her kids? You were a godly friend.
Remember the forgiveness you have received through Christ and in turn forgave that harsh word that flew out of your friend’s mouth.
Remember when you taught Sunday School and the kids were amazed at the story of Gideon? You passed on the Word and the Love.
Laying in bed at night, just before I fall asleep, the bullets of Satan also begin their work. No! I refuse to listen. And you can too.
I pull out my Bible and read. Satan’s bullets disappear.
Take up the shield of faith with which you can extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one. Ephesians 6:16