Wait…and Listen

Insight for Living publishes a Daily Devotional. The following is their devotional for Sunday, March 22, 2012, yesterday. It touched me deeply so I wanted to share it with you. They also have a large Broadcast Library from which you can choose from Hundreds of broadcasts.

During the three days of waiting, there is a “white space” when nothing is happening—at least nothing visible. You could easily tell yourself at the time, “I’m waiting in vain. Nothing’s going to change.” That’s what the adversary wants you to think: “Waiting’s a waste.” Don’t you believe it! When the enemy’s message roams into your mind, you need to kick it out. Reject it. Look at another verse in Isaiah, just a few verses after the “eagle” verse.

Do not fear, for I am with you;
Do not anxiously look about you, for I am your God.
I will strengthen you, surely I will help you,
Surely I will uphold you with My righteous right hand.

For I am the LORD your God, who upholds your right hand,
Who says to you, “Do not fear, I will help you.” (Isaiah 41:1013)

It’s those kinds of thoughts that surely strengthened Esther while she was waiting, praying, and fasting for those three days. Mordecai did the same, as Esther had commanded. But now their roles were reversed. He was no longer in charge; she was. Or, better still, the Lord was. And as the Lord gripped her heart, she became unafraid of what she faced.

This may be one of those “white spaces” in your own life. Maybe it’s time for you to pray and fast and to call upon a few close friends to fast and pray with you. Maybe it’s time for you to say, “I’m not going to rush into this unpredictable and unprecedented situation. I can’t find the path to walk. So I’m going to wait. In the meantime, I’m going to give it to God. I’m going to listen with a sensitive ear and watch the Lord’s leading with a sensitive eye.”

God counsels us with His eye. The eye makes no sound when it moves. It requires a sensitive, earthly eye to watch the movement of the eye of God—God’s directions. All He may do is turn your attention in another direction. But that may be all you need. As you wait, listen. Pore over a favorite passage in His Word. Quietly give attention to His presence, and He gives you direction.”

The website is: https://www.insight.org/resources/daily-devotional/individual/wait-.-.-.-and-listen1

The Holy Spirit

The Holy Spirit – have you heard from him lately?

Have you ever felt the presence of God so strongly that you fell on your face and cried because of your sinfullness? Then you cried because he filled you with so much love that it overflowed and the tears just wouldn’t stop? Have you ever felt the Holy Spirit hovering near you and you knew that he had a word for you?

I have been a Christian for 35 years and I have never felt God’s presence so strongly as in the past five months. Why now? I have no idea. I went through a difficult personal time last fall, but I have been through harder times. I sought God’s face with all my soul, but I have done so before.

Last Fall, when I moved into a new place, I made the commitment to no longer own a t.v. Instead of watching mindless nothingness, I now pray and read scripture. There was a time in my life – many times in my life – when I could not have imagined myself doing this. My prayers would last five minutes if I was lucky and the Bible seemed meaningless. I did try to commit myself and I did my quiet times, they just didn’t touch me very deeply.

Now? Now I can easily spend three to four hours in reading and prayer every day. God touches me, fills me,  speaks to me, loves me. It is indescribable! My only explanation is that God has put this commitment and these desires into my heart and then he has met those desires with himself.

Recently I was watching the Visual Bible dvd of The Gospel of John. If you haven’t seen it, you should!  It is word for word from scripture, nothing added and nothing deleted.

As I watched, it came to the part where Jesus was teaching in the temple and he said that his time is coming. (John 12:23) He says his heart is troubled, and what should he do? Pray that this difficult time is taken away? His whole purpose was for this difficult time. I have read this scripture many times over the years and watched it on this dvd several times. THIS time was different. As I heard these words of Christ, my focus sharpened and I drank in every syllable.

What should I do? Father, bring glory to your name.

When the hardest part of my life is right now, when my heart is truly breaking, when all I can do is beg God to take it all away, what should I do? The answer is – pray that God’s name would be glorified.

This may seem obvious to many of you, but in the dailyness of ups and downs, work and family, I lost my focus. I prayed most days, read my Bible often and was in church every week. I think that sometimes the cloak of daily Christian life makes me complacent to all that God would have me do and experience. Now when I pray I feel the Spirit in me like never before. Every single decision I make on a daily basis I pass by him first, even the little ones: Hmm, done with the dishes, what should I do now? Lord, do you have a word for me so I should read? Is there someone I need to call? Pray? Rest? Most of the time I feel  a direction from the Spirit. I no longer pray that difficult times would be taken away or fixed. Without them, I would not hear from the Father so closely, I would not be filled with love from the Spirit so full. I would not trade it for the world, nor for the tv.

This writing too has come from Him. This is part of my worship to God and a part of his direction for me. Thank you for coming along and being a part of my worship.